I dont know

okay ya'll know am some dreamy chic who lives in another land , actually some will say am very realistic and practical ( Ghada mostley ,,maby Nada too ) but the thing is am both ..how does that work ? I dont know , i am very imagintive but in the same time i dont let my imaginary life effect my real life ( i hope u understood xD ) i am a very contradicted person i dont understand my self smtimes , like for example i love girly shit like fashion makeup and am obsessed with women magazines and shopping , when i cant sleep i log into beauty and fashion websites BUT there is no better girl than me to take with you camping and watch football with , i eat anything i can be put anywhere and i dont complain or say i cant do something bcz of my hair or cloth or nails ,,, when its adventure time am a dude by all means ( and let me tell u , anything that dsnt include my parents is an adventure to me )

There are so many personalities in me that smtimes i dont know who i am, they say " you dont find yourself , you make yourself " but how can i make myself with so many opposing principles in me , am a very religious girl but am not religious at all i am a very nerdy person but u can hardly call me the nerd of the class i possess enough class and sass but am ur typical girl from the hood i adore old rules and traditions but i want nothing but liberty . no wonder i get along with many people ! i have jigsaw pieces that fits everyones puzzle but apparently i cant make my own puzzle .

i dont know who i am and i dont understand myself ,  i would like to know who i am and what i stand for , nobody can tell me who i am cuz most ppl only get to meet one of my personalities , i need to know who i am as a whole , and maby going to the USA will make me know myself , because when put in a hard and a different challenging situation , one knows from what he is made  off and i hope am a real diamond not a fake one .
-KISSES