Decisions have been made & Risks will be taken

Today i had this dream that made me VERY thoughtful..i am going to die one day ,everyone is but what if i died tomorrow? i wouldn't have lived the life i wanted to live ! you see, i wanted to be a doctor i am passionate about it and it would've made my dad soooo happpy ! its his dream for me ..but when i thought deeply abt it (and watched far too many episodes of greys anatomy) i realised that medicine is a commitment, it has to be your life ,it has to be your priority , its like you are marrying someone ,you need to be soo in love with it that you don't want anything more or els you wont be a good doctor.
I simply couldn't be a doctor ! i have far too many dreams and i have too many adventures planned and to be planned... i didnt want to be JUST a doctor i wanted to be smthng more i want to fully taste life i want to see everything and do everything ..am too wild too be put in a cage! i would definitely not put my patients first, so i decided its not a good idea to be a doctor cuz if i will be one i want to be a good one, good enough to cure an incurable disease ...so it turns out i can still make my dream come true and cure a disease... by being a medical technology student !! u knw the ones in the lab taking samples from everywhere and testing them and trying to find a cure for stuff..its perfect ! cuz as it appears i was born to do this ,  my mum told me that when i was a kid i used to remove my pampers by myself and squish my poop and try to find out what it was , i was so curious and amazed!!( its nasty i know  xD )  and as i grew up i became even more curious and started to do weird stuff just to get an answer, i  always told her what i have discovered ( i am far too ashamed to tell you abt my discoveries , i discovered stuff that were already discovered i was just to young to know) and now at the age of 17 i have proposed so many theories that need to be proved (ask my frndz i always bother them with my theories xD ) soo this job is PERFECT *.*
i have many stuff i want to do before i die but i decided not to make a list mainly because i cant remember what i want xD but also bcz i think that adventure will be offered to me or will be there infront of me and i knw that i never say no to adventure... so whatever comes in my way ill do it and i am very sure that there are many cming my way cuz i said yes to my big USA adventure and we all knw USA is land of adventures...
-KISSES
P.S : just to be clear when i say adventure i dnt mean a safari or something..i mean smthng i havnt done and am not allowed to do or is dangerous to do ;) ..but a safari is one of the things i wanna do